Friday, April 10, 2009
I'm pretty opinonated...I know this and I'm ok with it. I like that I have an opinion, like a friend told me today, if you say something to me you have to know I'm going to tell you how I feel or think about what you've said. Yesterday a friend of mine blindsided me and told me how she felt about me, she said I always have something to say about everything...if you read what I wrote above, I'm ok with someone saying that to me, but not in the delivery it was made. It was hurtful...and I was extremely taken back by the whole thing. There are things that bother me about all of my friends...and yes I usually complain about these things to other friends...I have a lot of friends who do this, I think it's cathartic...it doesn't mean I don't like them it just means they're DRIVING me NUTS ( it happens)!!! I'd like to think I'm a good friend, I try and go out of my way to help people, and I've noticed that a lot of my friends have called me to confide in me or tell me when somethings gone wrong and nine times out of ten they usually say it's because they felt like they could. I guess what I'm saying is I'm ok with being opinionated and always having something to say, I actually like that about myself, and I'm not going to change it. This is me, take it or leave it, but don't hurt my feelings, because I have them, and it hurts very badly coming from a friend...especially when it's not the first time. Again I respect anybody's opinion of me, just not always the delivery.
In other opinionated news...I'm missing "V" like crazy. I mean I'll make it a few more weeks, but darn it...we just had 16 LONG months apart, and I feel EXTREMELy vulnerable once again! "V" is my rock...my solid place...sometimes he drives me NUTS, but I think he's supposed to, and I miss him...I hope these next few weeks FLY by!