She will live, we are still not a hundred percent sure what's going on but we do know she's going to live which I guess is a good thing.
In the mean time I think I got so worked up over everything that I feel myself starting to unravel. I have never been the most organized person. I have great intentions but those intentions are just that. Making intentions turn into actual action and keeping it that way is a huge problem for me. When I start to unravel, I'm one of those people who just kind of sits back with a defeatist attitude thinking "OK, that's it I give up" all the while letting things get worse and worse. Of course I know what you're thinking, if I know that I do this and I know how bad I can let things go, why not just change it. Well as everyone know things like that are easier said than done and although I dole out some fantastic advice I am typically the very last to take it.
So I am making a 3/4 ways into the new year resolution to be more proactive and get my life together, and back on track. I need to get more organized in all aspects of my life, home, work, life and especially financially. We'll see how I do if I can keep my attitude up and not get manic over it I should be OK.
Oh yeah and after a minor 3lb slip up I am back on my diet. What in the hell is the point in losing any weight if I am just going to gain it all back again??
